I am otherwise enthusiastic about sex and I'm pretty sure I'd enjoy giving BJs once I got used to doing them. I suppose I'd have to talk this through with my guy first and I'm honestly really embarrassed about being pushing 30 with no oral experience when it seems like most girls nowadays are experts at half my age. I've tried watching pornos for this but they all just seem so.ridiculous and performative, I guess. I'm sleeping with a new guy now and I think he's great and I'd like to get over this hurdle with him. Besides that my sexual experience is largely limited to a smattering of random hookups, which never felt like the right moment for 'hey, want to enjoy my first-ever shitty blowjob?' so I just avoided them altogether. There's no particular reason why I've never done this before, except that my one long term relationship was with the rare sort of guy who just didn't care for them at all.
